I love being in control, but some things are so far out of my hands. This is the case for all of us. In these moments it’s important to accept that it’s time to step back and look at what they could mean, and re-evaluate your path.
When you find yourself continuously knocking at the same door and having no one answer, it may be time to consider knocking on another door. This is not at all to say give up on your dreams, just take a step back and re-evaluate. It’s so easy to get so absorbed in chasing your goals, that you forget why you were passionate about them in the first place. I like to remember to check in with myself from time to time and make sure my goals still align with my core values.
I had goals to find a job in Ottawa, and I kept feeling so close. I had an offer that got revoked and I had promising interviews that never lead anywhere. In those moments I wanted so desperately to just not fail but I didn’t know if succeeding was what I wanted either. At the end of the day, I didn’t succeed in landing an impressive job in a city I don’t love. I did, however succeed in making a decision to trust my heart and making the best decisions for me.
I kept asking myself why I thought these things didn’t work out. I know that there must have been applicants who were more qualified than I am – if I was the best applicant, I would have landed the jobs. But I also reminded myself that the universe works in mysterious ways, and if I was meant to be here doing that, I would have been the best applicant.